I Crossed The Borderline...<title> <style type="text/css"> div {scrollbar-arrow-color: #FFFFFF; scrollbar-base-color: #000000; scrollbar-track-color: #FFFFFF; scrollbar-face-color: #000000; scrollbar-highlight-color: #FFFFFF; scrollbar-3dlight-color: #000000; scrollbar-darkshadow-color: #000000; scrollbar-shadow-color: #000000} body {scrollbar-arrow-color: #000000; scrollbar-base-color: #FFFFFF; scrollbar-track-color: #FFFFFF; scrollbar-face-color: #FFFFFF; scrollbar-highlight-color: #FFFFFF; scrollbar-3dlight-color: #FFFFFF; scrollbar-darkshadow-color: #FFFFFF; scrollbar-shadow-color: #FFFFFF; background-image: none background-repeat: repeat} td {font-family: georgia; font-Size: 7pt; Color: 959595} INPUT {background-color: transparent; color: #959595; border: 1px #FFFFFF solid } TEXTAREA {background-color: transparent; color: #959595; border: 1px #FFFFFF solid } b{color: FFFFFF; font-size: 10pt;} i{color: FFFFFF; font-size: 10pt;} u{color: FFFFFF; font-size: 11pt;} a{ CURSOR: default; COLOR: FFFFFF; TEXT-DECORATION: none; font-family: century gothic} a.navi:link, a.navi:active, a.navi:visited {cursor: default; color: FFFFFF; TEXT-DECORATION: none; background-color: 000000; text-align: center; width: 80%; font-family: century gothic} a.navi:hover {cursor: default; color: 000000; TEXT-DECORATION: none; background-color: FFFFFF; text-align: center; width: 80%; border: 2px #000000 solid; font-weight: bold; font-family: century gothic} a:hover {CURSOR: default; COLOR: FFFFFF; TEXT-DECORATION: none; background-color: transparent; border-bottom: 2px #FFFFFF solid; font-family: century gothic} .titlenavi {FONT-FAMILY: Georgia; FONT-SIZE: 11pt; COLOR: #FFFFFF; TEXT-DECORATION: none; margin-bottom: 20px; line-height: 15px; font-weight: normal; display: block; border: 2px #FFFFFF solid; font-weight: bold; text-align: center} table{width: 437px;} --> </style> </head> <body bgcolor="#000000"> <div id=head style="left: 0px; top: 0px; topmargin: 0; leftmargin: 0; position: absolute"> <img src="http://i216.photobucket.com/albums/cc235/sternchen1207/Lay_Jen.jpg" border="0" > </div> <div align="justify" id=entry style="position: absolute; left: 390px; top: 180px; z-index: 1; width: 540px; height: 450px; font-family: arial; font-size: 12px; color: #FFFFFF; border=: 2px; overflow: auto; filter: alpha(opacity=100) <font face="Verdana, Tahoma, Arial" size="2" color=""> <table class="inhaltetable" border="0" width="480" cellspacing="1" cellpadding="3"> <tr> <td width="100%"> <font face="Verdana, Tahoma, Arial" size="2" color=""> <b>girl disappearing</b> <br /> <br /> <div align="justify"><p><font size="5" face="Verdana" color="#003333"><font size="2"><em> 7 am<br /> So it beings again<br /> 1-0 (zip) favoring familiar silhouettes<br /> Left whips and chains<br /> Behind I'm boycotting trends<br /> It's my new look this season<br /><br /> Riding on backs of palominos<br /> Primed for an attack<br /> It's as good<br /> As good as it gets<br /> With girl disappearing<br /> What on earth's occurring?<br /> 'cause she's right in front of me<br /><br /> A girl disappearing<br /> To some secret prison<br /> Behind her eyes she whispers<br /> "Big surprise there was<br /> No protection by this urban light<br /> So I'm running to<br /> A constellation<br /> Where they can still see you"<br /><br /> Envy can spread<br /> Herself so thinly<br /> She slipped in<br /> Before I could notice it<br /><br /> In my own war<br /> Blood in the cherry zone<br /> When they<br /> Pit woman against feminist<br /><br /> Riding on backs of palominos<br /> Ditching the blond shell<br /> Working her hell<br /> On that red carpet<br /><br /> With girl disappearing<br /> What on earth's occurring?<br /> 'cause she's right in front of me<br /><br /> A girl disappearing<br /> To some secret prison<br /> But she's right in front of me<br /> A girl disappearing<br /> To some secret prison<br /> Behind her eyes she whispers<br /> "Big surprise there was<br /> No protection by this urban light<br /> So I'm running to<br /> A constellation<br /><br /> Where they can still see you"<br /> Then I'm running too<br /> If that's a consolation<br /></em> <br /><em> 'cause I can still see you...<br />[Tori Amos - Girl Disappearing]</em></font></font></p><p> </p><p><font color="#006633">Müde und schwindelig ganz ohne Mirtazapin. Ich will nicht. Habe Angst vor morgen. Bereue es ganz furchtbar, überhaupt was gesagt zu haben...Wie dumm. Ich sah es kommen, der ganze Mist, alle reden, denken sich, was sie wollen.</font></p><p><font color="#006633">Wenn ich Geld hätte, wer ich weg. Ich weiß wirklich nicht, wo ich all das Geld gelassen habe...kann mich nur noch schwach daran erinnern, die L.L. Alben gekauft zu haben - was will ich nun mit dem Schrott??? </font></p><p><font color="#006633">Morgen werde ich Theater spielen, will verdammt noch mal nicht in eine Klinik. Wenn ich warten muss, bin ich weg, ich will will will nicht...Mir ist zu heulen zu Mute, zuviele Schnitte, Stiefel reiben bei jedem Schritt an den Verbänden. Werde wohl mit Make-up nicht durchkommen, mal sehen, wieviel ich verschweigen kann. Vielleicht finde ich ja irgendwo eine Arbeit - aber hey, wer will schon eine Bekloppte? Richtig! Keiner!!! </font></p><p><font color="#006633">Die großartigen Träume von der Karriere kann ich nach der Klinik begraben...Manchmal ist es besser, zu richtigen Zeit den Abgang von der Bühne zu machen, bevor man sich als inkompetenter Trottel outet. Oder als hoffnungsloses Talent. Der Stempel, als ewiges Talent zu gelten, kriegt man wohl nie ab. Frage mich im Moment immer wieder, wo ich denn bitte die falsche Abzweigung erwischt habe, ich weiß es einfach nicht. </font> <br /></p><p> </p><p> </p><p> </p> </font> </td> </tr> <tr> <td width="100%"> <table border="0" style="BORDER-TOP: #f2f2f2 1px dotted;" width="100%" cellspacing="3"> <tr> <td> <font face="Verdana, Tahoma, Arial" size="1" color=""> <i>16.3.08 21:51</i><br>  </font> </td> <td> <font face="Verdana, Tahoma, Arial" size="1" color=""> <div align=right><a href="http://riven-me.myblog.de/riven-me/art/5778729/girl-disappearing">verlinken</a><br> </div> </td> </tr> </table> </td> </tr> </table> </center> <font face="Verdana, Tahoma, Arial" size="2" color=""> <br /><br /> <a name="comm"></a> <center>bisher <b>0</b> Kommentar(e)     <a rel="nofollow" href="http://riven-me.myblog.de/riven-me/tb/5778729/642348" target=_blank>TrackBack-URL</a> <p align=right> <p align=right> <script type="text/javascript"> var blogTool = "20six/myblog"; var blogURL = "http://myblog.de/riven-me"; 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